i feel bad for you
written by holly miller & cole walowac. produced by cole walowac. mixed by doug weier. mastered by bob boyd at ambient digital.
“I often reflect on the times I’ve been alone… processing alone… those moments where you’re trying to figure it all out. We have all been there, like our feelings are waves 20 feet tall, about to capsule us and never let go. In those moments, all I wanted was a hug... for someone to look me in the eyes and let me know I was seen, I was loved, and I could make it through whatever was overwhelming me. If I wouldn’t have had people who volunteered to be there for me, acknowledge my feelings, and empower me, I don’t know where I’d be today.
Recently, I thought to myself… what about the girl who has no one? What is she going to do when grief swallows her and abandonment stings her soul? What if she doesn’t know there’s a God who loves her, or even refuses to believe in that kind of thing?
How do I give her a hug? How do I comfort her? Sit with her. Even though I’m thousands of miles away and we’ve never met?
By sharing my story, my grief, my abandonment, my freedom, my thoughts, my emotions… that might just bring her that sense of comfort she’s been waiting for. Because, you see, we are not alive to fix people’s problems, but to empower and love alongside them in the way they should go.”
“bye, sad girl.” is a deep part of my story. The project is told over the course of six songs, woven together, to portray the emotions of what it looks like to have a broken heart.
As the story unfolds, it doesn’t end with grief, but shows the beginning of joy. The lyrics paint the picture of embracing the death of something, and in the letting go, finding yourself again. I hope this piece of my heart inspires you to look inside yourself, know you’re loved for who you are in this moment, and empowers you to share your story. The world needs to hear your heart.
You are seen.
You are not alone.
Keep being vulnerable.